#abuse still sorry i dont know
BUT NOW IM FEELING PANICKY ABOUT EVER TAGGING POSTS ABOUT THEM AS ABUSE BECAUSE WHAT IF THEY SEE AND GET ANGRY AT ME BECAUSE, BECAUSE I SAID TO A FRIEND ONCE THAT SOMETHING THEY WERE DOING ‘SEEMS SORT OF ABUSIVE’ AND THE FRIEND TOLD THEM ID SAID THAT and they, they came in i, we were always in their bedroom but that time i was, hiding in the bathroom jesus christ i was hiding from them i felt too anxious to be in the room with them and that was so early on what the fuck, what the fuck but they, came in and were so accusing “so [friend] says you think i’m abusive??” and of course i stammered and backed down and they, said that “calling it abuse means absolving yourself of blame for the situation” and thats stuck with me so much i dont know if it’s true i dont know i dont know but they told me that and i had to believe it and i apologized and i just, i dont know, i’m scared, i’m scared to talk about them here i dont know if they check my blog i dont think they do i doubt they do but i only think that because i just have to assume they dont care about me at all dont think about me at all, i dont know if theyll ever see this i hope not i hope not i’m scared i’m sorry
mtchess-blog said: its definitely abuse, i’m 100% sure, no one can deny that, anyone who would is an abuser, its okay to be scared though, i would be too, i get scared a lot over the tiniest things, but people are here and would definitely defend you.
moggadeet said: you’re not absolving yourself of blame, their behavior seems genuinely unhealthy and had a really bad effect on you but even that aside i think it could definitely trigger some other people who have dealt w abusive relationships
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