suddenly feel really self-conscious and anxious wow usually i’m glad to be home alone (or dont even notice whether i am) but i’m getting paranoid and i just feel weird aaaaaugh i feel obnoxious talking about dmmd when no one else is which translates to… not wanting to allow myself to watch more of it? when the solution instead is to just not post as much but at the same time if i’m watching something but not talking about it and trying to be funny and shit then i’ll feel guilty and shallow for watching it at all so i. can’t win in my brain. i’m annoying for not shutting up but if i do then i’m being useless and boring like usual. aaaaaaaaaaugh